Are you a smart person? Reasonable? intelligent?
What if you thought you were, but due to living with truly intelligent people it becomes more and more apparently clear that you are one of the dull tools in the shed that have never been sharpened and are only used for menial, simple tasks?
What if important things need to be done, but you and everyone else involved knows that you don’t have the mental sharpness to get any part of it done reliably?
What do you do?
What do you do when the hard realization of the true lacking nature of your mind comes out and there is nothing to be said? You are asked why you can’t think of things, and right then and there you can’t even come up with a reasonable answer to the WHY!
Have you always known that quick responses were not one of your gifts? Do you bite your tongue when someone disagrees with you? Letting them go on and say their full and long drawn out piece without interruption, and still not have anything intelligent to say to defend yourself when they are done?
You feel like a burden. You know you are. It doesn’t help that you don’t have any useful skills for any of the areas that could do with help. Nothing you do is worthwhile.
I’m a mom. I am a good mom because my little girl is always happy and smiling. She is healthy, clean and growing fast.
I can keep a house tidy and have hot meals ready for the end of the day.
I work in the garden and take the dog for long walks.
Those are things I am happy doing and decently good at.
I virtually can not
foresee potential problems. That right there is my biggest problem. I just don’t see them! When a problem arises, I can’t even come up with solutions at a decent pace.
When figuring out solutions is the demand for the day and remembering details (another thing of which I am terrible at) is leaving me baffled, it becomes very apparent quite quickly just how incompetent I am.
So there we have it out in the open. I’m a dimwit and I’m stuck like that.